" It was probably by month 3 that I noticed I didn't want to kill people on a daily basis." You mean those feelings are supposed to go away! 
Yes, you are going insane. Welcome to the family! We're all a little nutty here. It's OKAY, we understand! The cure is right around the corner. It's called time.
This is the time when we can be incredibly productive, creative, playful. We're in the stage of madly becoming non-smokers. You have to do some cocooning to become a butterfly. /blogs/jonescarp.aka.dale.Jan_2007-blog/2013/05/04/youve-got-to-do-some-cocooning-to-be-a-butterfly-...
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This was a hefty girl biplane on our fence a couple of years back. Not one of those delicate damselfly-type girlies.
I had the privilege of watching a dragon fly being born many years ago on the side of our pond back then. It was one of the most amazing experiences I've even been party to. This horrifically ugly, SCARY looking ALIEN creature had crawled out of the pond and sat in the sun by the bank. I found it at the stage where it had already cut a hole in it's carapace and come out. (the following shots are not mine)
It's wings were stuck together upright above it's body, and out of it's tail water was oozing. Drop by drop. Drop by drop. Eventually all the drops were dropped and suddenly the wings opened parallel to the earth. And they remained that way for a while as the sun dried them.
And just as suddenly they began to flutter madly with all their might. That went on for a brief period and then she just lifted up and off and was gone. And I was STUNNED by the realization that this creature had been a water breathing creature 45 minutes ago and now, not only was breathing air, but could fly.
I often recall this transformation when I think of the quitting process. It's such a major change in our lives. They can do it. So can we. Just like Dale has often said, you gotta do some cocooning to become a butterfly. And part of that cocooning is educating ourselves before we begin the journey.
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