butterflies were not originally beautiful and able to fly. how could we ever guess something so beautiful could come from a caterpillar metamorphosing in a mysteriously misshapen shell?
we can't expect the memories of something we did so many times a day and depended on for years to not surface. giving up smoking is like losing your best friend, a family member or a pet.
it's all we knew and time is the only healer. time and the realization of how smoking dictated our life by controlling our time and emotions. the fact is, we simply can't see it while we are smokers. Call it "unrealized denial."
time
time and the understanding that the dopamine was what was relaxing, not the physical act of smoking. yes we had to stop what we were doing to "relax" and smoke so maybe that is why we were fooled. perhaps the simple act of stopping what we were doing to smoke may have made it feel like we were relaxing but in fact, we did it for the dopamine release the nicotine triggered in our brain.
quitting is a process not an event.
"you've got to do some cocooning to be a butterfly"
we are here as proof it can be done
