Ok first of all, again, thanks! You guys are awesome! I don't really know you guys, but I thought of your words of support yesterday when I had moments of feeling like I was weak and I got through the moments!
So yesterday, I have to keep this in the front of my mind all day or else I know that I can slip without thinking. I reminded myself that a few years ago, I stopped smoking in bed ( I always liked that last stick before closing my eyes) and for years I haven't even gone in the BR with a cig. And about a year ago I stopped smoking on my couch. So now I've decided to take the desk at home out too. It's the hardest one but I figure do it now while I'm determined. Today I woke up and drank my coffee again without smoking. The next thing I knew it was about 30 mins after being awake that I smoked! Only one! Tasted nasty!! Also taking time to stop and smoke, makes it feel like an interuption. Yesterday I smoked 14 cigarettes. just 2 days before that, I smoked 30 cigarettes. Right now I'm going to focus on keeping that number till I can chip away at the 14. I'm hoping soon that I can get rid of daytime smoking all together. It's hard and like I said some of those moments are bad enough to make me want to pop. But I really try to stay focussed.And remind my self why I am doing this for myself.
