Day 5 Struggles

[flaroyale]

Well, Day 4 went really well not to many issues and I thought it would get better from there.  Well, Day 5 is not going as well. Didn't sleep well last night and have really anxious.  I have been unemployed since June of 2015 and it doesn't seem what I do I can't seem to get a job.  It all really came down on me last night and has carried over to today.  I do not and can not smoke but it is a struggle right now.   I find myself thinking well just go ahead and smoke till you get a job and then you won't have as much stress, or what is the point of going through all this anxiety when it is jus making you feel worse.  I know this is the addiction talking but it is powerful.  Just needed to get that off my chest.  Say a prayer for me if you are so inclined.

Tammy