I'm approaching 90 days quit (and my birthday) and am struggling today. I picked up a nasty sinus infection that I managed to ignore (not notice?) for three weeks and now I'm suffering, like I feel every bit as bad as I did on my worst day as a smoker. I don't know why this makes me want to smoke (why should feeling ill make me want to smoke?), but it does. I suspect the impending birthday and Thanksgiving holiday aren't helping and the general malaise of this illness is affecting my stamina (not to mention having to step on a scale at a doctor and feeling like a fat pant load). Regardless, I feel miserable and weak. I'd love to go for a walk and just exercise this urge away but I feel too sick to do it today. I just hope the steroids and antibiotic will clear this infection, and I'm annoyed with myself for not realizing I was so sick until I was REALLY sick. I think I was probably so used to not feeling 100% as a smoker, I just didn't even notice. I'm sure quitting in the midst of one serious illness (bronchitis from my daughter that lasted nearly 7 weeks) didn't help. I just find myself worrying that this is as good as it'll get. I'll never really feel better because I waited too long to quit in the first place. (I can't say that to my husband because he thinks I'm trying to make an excuse to smoke, but I'm really not. I know that would only make it worse.) I'm just frustrated (and sick) and it sucks.
