Well, here it is, winding down on Day 15. I've had some stressors over the last couple of days, but nothing has made me want to smoke.
Amongst all my neuroses and quirks, I am almost painfully socially shy. I believe a therapist once said that if she was called to testify in a court of law, she would have no problem proving my social anxiety. Today the church I have been going to had a picnic. They needed someone to take signs back to the church, and as is my nature, I volunteered. It was the only reason I was able to attend and stay at the function. I was so screwed up that I didn't eat...just tried to find somewhat comfortable places to stand and observe. I'm sure they all think I am some sort of weirdo or stuck up snob, but it was hugely uncomfortable for me. As soon as I felt it was okay to take the signs, I was out of there!
The saving grace of the day was that one lady had a dog that reminded me so much of my baby girl, Carrie, that it made my heart skip a beat. I got to love on her and she gave me kisses! It was incredible!
Most importantly, no matter what I was feeling, I never felt like smoking!! I am floored by that! I have been "faking it til I make it", but maybe it isn't as much faking as I think....
Thanks for listening,
P.S. I didn't mention anything about my problems with Amazon customer service because there would have been too many *'s to have made it intelligible.