Interesting, your nickname is Hopefulsoul. It's hard to imagine life without smoking (addiction to nicotine) because nicotine has such an unusual effect on the brain. Smoking doesn't really feel all that great, and doesn't give a high like alcohol or other drugs do. Yet the addiction leads us to believe that we can't live without it. That's why no bottom is too low for any addict. Even death. Yet, here you are, hopeful and wanting to quit.
If you want to get yourself out of this addiction, then decide to do the work that it will take to get you free. There is no other way--and you are strong enough, capable enough of succeeding. You are not excluded from succeeding by some mysterious force. Stay invested in your desire to quit, keep looking, keep choosing. Yes you can.
It sounds as though you feel helpless about changing your behavior. For sure, quitting brings up fear in almost all smokers. I went through it--I wondered if I'd stick to my decision. But it does sound as if you are saying you can't decide on any behavior changes. There are a billion choices in behavior changes for quitting, but they work because we sign on to the idea of quitting first.
It could be that a combo of several things will be what will work for you, but first you must decide that you will quit.
Your quit date is not nearly as important as your decision to change. What will it take for you to become willing to give it your all? What will help you get there?
No matter what, keep working toward the change that you are wanting to make, Hopefulsoul. There is a saying that hard work makes it easier for luck to find us!!! Meaning, if you don't see your way forward now, keep working at it, because it may surprisingly take shape.
