staying quit

[Cbefree]

Greetings everyone....51 days & wanted to touch base with myself & anyone who might read this.

Just now had a feeling come over of the tinniest sensation of congratulations to myself. This hasn't happened before now, it wasn't that I was pushing away the triumph I think it was more that I felt too precarious to allow it to seep through. I feel like the last 50 days has been just pushing through; one foot in front of the next step, like having zero affect or emotion no extremes, keep everything flat feels safer. I have never been this "present" in a quit, this reflective of the journey. It makes sense that this is useful, especially with the adage "what we resist persists". 

Be well

Cindy