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[estep.becky]

sometimes i just really dont like myself and those times are the worst. if you dont care for yourself, why would you bother to quit smoking? you just dont care. whatever.

im looking forward to my quit date. im actually kind of excited about it. im not afraid, because i know if i screw up i will try again. im not a quitter. i mean, i want to be a quitter. but i will never quit trying to be a quitter.

i smoke with my husband in the evening. it is a nice, relaxing, bonding time. it's hard to go out with him and not have one, but i sure don't want to give up those times either.

it seems like it's easier to not smoke my first cigarette of the day. after i have one, then the cravings start.