I'm proud to say that it's been 40 days and I'm still holding strong!
Here was my ultimate test, I was in a casino for two days. OMG, the first day when I arrived it was about 5pm, I immediately felt overwhelmed with the cigarette smell as we explored the casino. I could feel it in my throat and my nose felt very stuffy. I walked around and the voices started. I popped in a butterscotch and I was good. I actually tried to gamble a little in the smoking section. I couldn't do it. I got something to eat and went to my room. It was only 8pm. The next morning I was up early before the smokers and discovered the no smoking section. I was actually okay because I was armed with a whole bag of my butterscotch that I kept shoving in my mouth as soon as one was gone. Lol. I was good. Talk about overcoming a trigger, gambling, smoking and a drink always went hand in hand together for me. I held on to a water bottle and sipped occasionally while tearing up my butterscotch candies.
Part of my quit strength is I just don't want to let myself down, I'm past the hard part, I can't go back. I don't want to go back to that place. My fellow ex' ears Im not on here much, but today I have some serious bragging rights so I'm sharing. A big shout out to Shawnp, thanks for the support I saw you pop up a few times. Thanks so much for checking on me. I didn't have my IPad with me so I couldnt respond. I don't like use my phone for this stuff.
For those of you that know my connection with mentholatedmelodykool, let's all keep her in prayer. In her defense After having watched me smoke for her entire life and now I'm preaching she needs to quit because I finally did. She can't even hear me. I want her to watch me ......being smoke free....... 40 days is an indication that it can be done. She can't see it, I just need her to see and hear me instead of listening to the voices. I can't stress and worry about her. I have my own journey with the beast, that I'm conquering everyday.
In about two weeks another big trigger, I take my first airplane ride, even though the days of smoking on planes have long passed, the days of getting in that last smoke before going inside the terminal and running off the plane to get to a smoking zone are no more. Ready.....Feeling powerful and proud of myself!
Nhandi.isfree ........Gina
