TODAY IS THE DAY!!

[Robin-K]

Well today is the day I quit smoking. I stayed in bed till almost 11am this morning. I actually wish I had stayed in bed the whole day! I had a cup of coffee and turned on the computer. Went to my Facebook page. I have found that when I'm in the kitchen I want to smoke...I didn't smoke in my house. I would smoke with the outside door open in the kitchen and would blow it out the door. So I'm finding that I want to smoke when I'm in the kitchen. This was earlier today. Now this evening I'm finding it comforting just standing by the stupid outside door! Weird!! Right around 5pm I had a bit of a break down. Cried for a bit. I think this is because on a normal day I would get off work and have my smoke on the way home. I live less then a 1/2 mile from my work so I would have the cigarette still by the time I pull in the driveway. Well my daughter and I took my van out to get it all cleaned up and smelling pretty this afternoon. When we got back and walked in the house that is when I lost it. I even had her drive so I wouldn't feel as bad. This is the other reason I wanted to quit now because we are on spring break here. So I'm not on my normal routine either. Monday should be interesting but at least I will have 3 days in. So anyway... It's now close to 8pm and I feel a little better now but I'm still thinking what a idiot I am for letting this stupid drug run my life!!! Oh I just get so mad when I think about how much it really ruled my life! So this is today's writing. Who knows I may want to write more later tonight I don't know. Right now I'm thinking about showering and getting in bed.... lol Thanks for all your wonderful posts and support! You guys are the best!!

Robin

[bloominglater]

girl, nictotine is a "helluva drug!" it's powerful and cigarettes are built to keep you hooked for life, so don't beat yourself up. pat yourself on the back for attempting to do one of the hardest things you may do in your life. it's more addictive than heroin. i have two days in and one of the only things that keeps me going is these folks on the site and the counter on my page. if you don't have one, get one! we're pulling for you!

[hwc]

Sounds like a pretty solid first day to me! You're doing great!

I laughed at you standing by the door. My smoking place at home was on the deck outside the kitchen/den. The kitchen was a major trigger for me. Cooking. Coffee in the microwave. I finally just started taking a cup of coffee out on the deck and having a non-smoking break.

Sometimes I would taunt the crave: "Is that all you got? You better bring more than that because I'm not smoking! Come on, hit me with your best shot. That's pathetic."

Other times, I would take five or six deep breaths and focus on the cold air going deep into my lungs. At first, it made me cough, but as time went by I could feel the improvement. That really focused me on the goal.

And, of course, sometimes I just went out there and screamed!

[Sandy4]

I have said it before and I will say it again. Positive thinking works wonders!! I really try to be more positive about my quit and other things in my life. It is weird but I look at quitting like child birth. It is painful to go through but the benefits out way the pain. If it didn't there wouldn't be any more children ever. And to tell you the truth I remember it HURT to give birth but I don't really remember the PAIN.
Quitting will be the same. Later down the you will remember it sucked but will you REALLY remember just HOW bad? The benefit WILL out way the way you feel NOW!
Never give up!! If you need anything let me know.

[kris-eidem]

The kitchen is on of my triggers too. I would smoke when doing dishes or when cooking (I know ashes getting into the food and stuff, gross) so I avoided the kitchen for extended periods of time. Now the kitchen is my favorite place to be, because I can be doing so many things to keep my mind off of cigarettes that I end up going into the kitchen not knowing what I'm doing and wind up cleaning out the cupboards or the fridge or washing something.