I can’t shake the tiredness. I slept for 10 hours and I was ok when I got up, but a couple hours later I’m exhausted again. And I’m sad. I’ve been crying for 30 minutes and when I think it’s stopping it picks back up. I know emotional extremes are normal during a quit, but I don’t think it helps that today is the 4th anniversary of my Granny’s death. And of course that makes me think of everyone I’ve lost since then: an 18 year old cousin to suicide in November 2017, my Grandma to breast cancer/dementia in January 2020, and my Grandpa to Covid in January 2021. Also lost 2 great-uncles, a great aunt, and a close family friend during that time. I hadn’t really experienced the death of a family member until my Granny passed, and then it just kind of seemed like the universe decided I had been lucky long enough and just started taking them. I’m so frustrated right now. I haven’t wanted to smoke this bad since the beginning of this quit. I’m not going to, I’m going to figure something out. But it’s tough right now. I just need for this sadness to go away. It honestly feels the way it feels right before my depression gets bad, but I’m hoping this is temporary. I’m hoping this is just my body adjusting and nothing more.
