First thank you to everyone who helps me by writing encouragement. Eventually, I hope that I will be able to help others. Right now though, I'm vulnerable.
Last evening I went fishing on the river and the fish weren't really biting ( I think it's too hot for them too). I sat in my boat thinking about having a cig. I didn't buy any and didn't smoke, but the thought lingered.
Today, I seem to be thinking about smoking--you know, just one. I think I can beat it for the day.
On Saturday, I have to attend a funeral and I am worried that the emotion of the whole thing may drive me to a cig--I probably ought to bring some Nic gum with me, but I really don't want nicotine anything. It seems to me that when you introduce nicotine in whatever form you use, you are hooked again. The only difference is you are not smoking.
I'm just going to have to tough it out--I'm kind of weak thinking about it though.
