Well, today should have been day 100 for me, but the evening of April 15th, I chose to smoke one cigarette, and so, it's only day 13 now. I was very upset that I chose to smoke the one, but glad I didn't choose to smoke the others that go with it. I won't get into all the circumstances because I'll just blame it on my husband, even though I know that I am the one who chose to smoke that one. I even said that to myself as I lit it. It's really strange how your mind works. You're telling yourself that you're doing this stupid thing you really don't want to do and then you just go ahead and do it anyway.
I haven't been commenting on anyone's blogs since I smoked that one, but I've been on here reading every day.
I was really lucky when I first quit because I didn't really have that hard of a time with it and it really surprised me. I was one of those people who thought they'd never be able to quit until I found this site, the whyquit.com site, and the quitsmokingonline.com site, and kept reading the blogs on here. It did seem to get harder after 40 days or so but I was doing fine until... I think it was getting harder during this time because I was gaining weight and couldn't do my exercises because I had foot surgery. I will be able to start exercising again on March 4th. So, I expect to start feeling better then because I'll be losing some of the 7 pounds or so I've gained and exercise always makes me feel better. I have my moments, but nothing I haven't been able to cope with, about the same as I was able to cope those first 87 days, until...
I want to thank everyone for their blogs and comments on this site. They're all helpful to someone in some way.
I have one question though. I started my count over again and believe that's the right thing to do, but physically, in my addiction, does this put me back to being quit for only 13 days, or am I still in no man's land because I only smoked the one?