Preparation AGAIN

[phoenix2]

Well, I've finally dispelled a whole bunch of "wrong" thinking about me & smoking. What I've lived through so far, doesn't present any insurmountable barriers to quitting - though I do have to be sensitive to what kinds of emotions will be popping up. Not really any different than anybody else; not really.

There is still the idea of explicit permission to smoke - as though it's going to be helpful. And that's really a long a story...

Yeah, I wished it hadn't take a month or so to get here again. But this kind of stuff simply can't be rushed. I'm not doing a quit date; it always sets me up for a contrary reaction. I am going to quit later in the morning - not just expect myself to wake up and begin a quit... no; I have to be fully conscious beginning the first 24 hours. Pressure & expectations & even some kinds of support are triggers for me - GO FIGURE.

I'll be back and chatting back & forth... a lot... once I've begun the quit.