Last night my wife and I had one of those clear-the-air discussions that got pretty heated at times. Lots of stuff that had been swept under the carpet for the past few months needed to get sorted out. We talked and sometimes argued heatedly all evening, for three or four hours. At times it was emtional and both of us had some soul searching to do. Through it all, I wasn't even tempted to smoke, even when she excused herself to "go outside".
This feels like a huge milestone for me. I had always feared an arguement with her would be the "one that did me in" quitwise because conflict makes me very anxious and normally we would chain smoke through an episode like last night, even though neirther of us are/were chain smokers.
I've been listening to Allen Carr's book on tape which I strongly recommend. Learning about why we smoke and how we fool ourselves into thinking we need to smoke I think really helped me last night.
Hope everyone's having a great Tuesday!
