Missing out

[fishwithbadlung]

I know this sounds silly but I feel as though smoking is like a good friend who treats me like shit. I’ve been smoking since I was about 12/13 and I’m 21 now. Smoking has been there for me through all these years. It gives me something to do, it’s there when I’m stressed. It’s there if I’m feeling sorry for myself and don’t feel like eating. It’s there after sex or when I’m drunk. I never realized how much of my life and actions lead into smoking. But it’s effecting my body already at such a young age and that scares me. I’ve been wheezy and it won’t stop. Out of breath when I have no right to be. With all that said I still feel like I’m missing out on something now that I’m considering quitting. I’m going to try my best for myself and the people I love who want me around. I know I can do it I just have to be diligent