I guess I just erased my really long post. I will summarize this is hell. I have been drinking alcohol to get through these 5 days and I am so scared I will relapse on my nicorette habit. I should have been blogging and getting help through the website but the two people said to wean myself off and that doesn't work with me so I have kept having it for since April 24th. and longer than that. I always get the trial size which those 20 pieces lasts me a day because I always say this is the last 10 dollars I will spend on Nicorette. gum or lozenges doesn't matter. Now I am wondering if I also have to go to AA to deal with this fairly recent realization that I may be an alcoholic too on top of a nicorette, diet soda, and fast food addict. All these unhealthy habits. I just need to remember how bad it is financially, phyically, and emotionally, phycologially. Please help with any suggestions or advice. I feel so down about myself.