I have been doing a bit of reminiscing lately, remembering my history and journey of being smoke-free. I reckon this just might be inspiring for the newbies.
I am trying to remember why I started smoking. I was just getting out of an emotionally abusive relationship so I was in complete limbo all those years ago. But I am not sure it was why I started. But it was like I just didn't care anymore about being against it in the first place long before I had my first puff. So I basically did it anyway.
I smoked for two years before my first quit. Then had many relapses. Like all addictions, I enjoyed it at the start. Before I knew it I was smoking a carton of cigarettes' a fortnight and giving into all my triggers. Stress, being bored where contributing to my problem because of my lack of coping mechanisms at the time. Therefore I friend recommended this Ex Community and was amazed by the support.
I ended up being put off by the lack of cleanliness cigarettes brought and the feeling of those hi urges that brought a bit of anxiety. I certainly do not miss those days. I used the blogs as a new coping mechanism as well as finding my own. I did not have a quit date. But I did educate myself as much as I could. I counted the days I was free to motivate myself and stay occupied.
Now I am over 10 years and 56 days smoke free. I don't keep track of the days anymore because it has been such a way of life now and I don't even miss it. I have also quit drinking alcohol being over 280 days AF and that has been working wonders. It simply just feels good!
Now I run a business call TheJuZShoW Music and making moves with my own music. I also have a budding flourishing relationship with my new boyfriend now. The present and future are my main focus.
