Please help. I just got a call . My best friend, so close we call each other sisters, her youngest son, who I call my adopted nephew, he just commited suicide. I don't feel yet, but the tears are coming fast and hard, and the thoughts of going and getting cigs is strong, so strong. I don't want to. I don't want to feel this either. What ever shall she do? How will she get thru this? Ohno, oh no, no, no, no!!!!!! Cigs will not bring him back, they will not. But I want one so badly. I just do not want to feel this....