Hi everyone,
I'm sad to say that I finally caved in at my 1 week mark and smoked a cigarette behind a waffle house... I was with a group of friends, all of which were smoking, and someone pulled out a marlboro smooth (my one weakness). I couldn't resist. It had been a rough day for me as far as my quitting thing. I started the day with a big meal, a convention (where I used to go just to smoke cause I could be away from my parents for the whole day) and ended with 6 hours at waffle house with friends. It was 3:30 am, we were all sitting in a circle telling stories and such when the deaf girl pulled out a Smoothe. After I had spent the last 2 hours rejecting every cigarette offered to me, I finally caved in when I smelled that Smoothe.
I do not intend to let this tiny slip up alter my goals in any way. It was one cigarette, out of my system and since then I've been back on track with no hesitation. At least I made it a week. I'm not sure how to go about better preparing for such an event as saturday night's waffle house hang out. Maybe I'll take my non-nicotine ecig with me incase I get another uncontrolable urge...but I'm affraid that the ecig will only do more harm than good...I'm not sure how to fix my mistake, but I dont intend to let it happen again.
Withdrawal symptoms are going away for the most part. Insomnia's getting better already, acne is clearing up, fatigue is gone. Still coughing up a lot of stuff, but at least its getting out of my lungs...
I still feel pretty good about all of this. It's day 8 and I'm still going strong. (minus the slight slip up). That last cigarette made me want to quit even more than I did when I started. Keeping on!
Just wanted to get that off my chest. thanks.