...... sneak a smoke in. No not realy. I only think I do. I would have to run down to the store and buy a pack. I can already see myself coughing and gagging because it taste nasty. My cheap side would curse me for destroying the pack of perfectly good cigarettes if i had a enough good sense to not keep them around. Afterwards I would be kicking myself for lighting up. I would have to reset my 37 days of being smoke free down to zero. A hour later the physical cravings would start kicking in telling me to smoke another. I would eventualy confess my dirty deed among my peers on here. Id have to tell my family I smoked and also a highschool friend. I could hide my misdeed but I would only be fooling myself. I dont want another cigarette. It would cause to many problems and not to mention it could lead to another failed attempt at quitting smoking.. Not one puff ever, just one = square one. At day 37 its still a daily task to stay smoke free. I know each day I say no my quit gets stronger. Im just frustrated right now because of stress and thats compounded by the fact I dont feal normal with out a cigarette in my hand. I cant wait to feal normal again.
