So far I've made it a full week and one day without smoking. I'm so proud of myself about today especially. I spent time today with someone I def made sure to avoid during my first few days quitting. Things were ok.. until we got into a little fight.. well, not so much a fight, but this person raised their voice and spoke to me like they shouldn't have.. I won't get into anything.. but my heart sank.. not sure if anyone knows that feeling, where you are just like omg did I really just get spoken to like that?! And my first instinct was to walk away.. I went for my pocketbook and went outside.. luckily, had no cigarettes on me.. and went into my truck listened to music, calmed myself down and ate a few mints. The best was the phone call.. "what are you smoking a cigarette?!?!!" -- " NO I'M NOT SMOKING!!!" -- it felt sooo good to say that!! So then after a bit, I was joined in my truck to go somewhere and I got onto the expressway and sureeee there were 2 of those construction trucks with the blinking arrows in both lanes, not moving. I was almost to the point where I was shaking.. chewing the hell out of my gum. I laughed, because God has one hell of a sense of humor. Stuck in dead traffic, with someone I was arguing with.. not being able to smoke!! HAHAHA.. well I WON!!! And if I can do it.. so can all of you! I now know that if I can be around this person and still resist smoking, I'm on a roll here!!
