This will be my first smoke free weekend in many, many years. Part of me just wants to curl up under the covers and go to sleep, and the other part of me knows I must continue throughout my day keeping busy and doing my best not to think about cigarettes. So for now I choose to go onto this site, a great website to read and write.
I still would love to have a cigarette but know that is not an option. When I think about it the thought really puts me on edge. I am sure many of you, probably all have felt the same way. (Knowing that truly does help.) I have read that the dreaded "just one won't hurt" is the worst thing to do. I have thought about that but am not obsessing over it. I don't want to undue the 6 days of hard work I have already done. In addition, I would really beat myself up over it if I did give in.
I must say I admire all of you "cold turkey quitters" out there. I am on the patch so at least I am getting my slow dose of nicotine during the course of the day. Right now I am working on the psychological issues that go along with quitting. As a patch user, the nicotine patches mg strength becomes less and less as you step down, eventually allowing you to become patch free. Being on the patch and being a member of "The Patch User" group on this site makes me realize just how powerful the drug nicotine is. OMG No wonder quitting smoking is one of the hardest things to do. If I knew it would be this difficult to quit, I never would have started in the first place. (I am sure all of us have thought about that.) But reality is, we all were former smokers and are quitting for various reasons, the primary reason I would think would be to prolong life. It seems strange to write I am a non-smoker. Almost seems like getting an A on a paper when I am used to getting B's and C's. We all need to be proud of ourselves, WE ARE DOING THIS FOR LIFE!!!!!
