Wow. 4 days of not smoking. To alot of people [especially those who've never smoked] - that doesn't seem like much to them. To me - it's everything. I love how I feel! I'm so proud of myself.
I never really realized how much time I wasted on smoking! Easily - an hour to two hours of the day, just smoking. Not to mention, in 4 days - that's $20 right there that i've saved. Plus I don't wake up wheezing anymore.
My husband has been extremely supportive this time around with this. Not to mention - he won't let me pull any of my old tricks. We went to the store today & he asked if I needed anything when he went in. I said no - i'll go in myself [which is what I always said - then i'd go in and buy a pack]. He said - No, I'll get it - your not giving up that easily. So he bought me my water & a snack. I didn't even have the intention to buy a pack, I just know I would've out of habit. If I start getting antsy or crabby - he'll hand me hard candy [lol] or rub my back, bring up something funny. It helps, alot.
We had people over last night to drink & hang out. I was REALLY worried last night - because his one friend and I are always smoke buddies at parties. Well, we were in the garage playing beer pong, and hanging out. His friend went to light up a cigarette - I flat out told him "No, Go outside. I just quit, I don't want to ruin it". Crazy thing - he actually did, and later said he respected me for being so blunt with him. I didn't have one cigarette, and I didn't even want one. Mainly cause I didn't smell them or see them being smoked. WEIRD PART - My husband smoked 1 or 2 last night .. and I kissed him afterwards. God it was AWFUL! I now understand the meaning of the phrase - "You taste like an ashtray" .. it was horrible. lol. Then this morning there were all these half smoked cigs outside - and [this is disgusting, but] - a few months ago, I probably would've smoked them. I threw them away instead. That right there proved to me that I can do this, I am changing my mindset, and I don't want to smoke anymore.
Hope everyone else is having a great smoke free weekend!
