Today was a good day. I thought it was going to be a lot tougher than it was. I don't know why I always hear that day 3 is the toughest. I am still really sick of these damn patches though. I am wondering if I can go on without putting on another patch. There weren't any intense cravings today at all. I was able to go outside and walk the dog without wanting to smoke. I have watched a show where many of the characters have smoked; didn't bother me. Maybe I'll give it another day or so before I ditch the patch. They're just so obnoxious. They also may be contributing to my insomnia. Went to bed at 11:30 or so last night and couldn't actually fall asleep until 1am.
I think that part of my indecisiveness with wanting smoke and quit smoking comes from just my indecisiveness in general. I cannot make a decision about anything ever. Normally things come down to snap judgements. I am truly thankful for making this plan and sticking to it, even if it has only been three days. I do the same thing with my hair (can't decide if it like it long, short, purple, pink, brown). I'm always afraid I'm going to make the wrong decision. It's probably got something to do with anxiety or something. I don't know.
For those wondering, I ended up making a 67 on my exam. Fortunately for me I can take it again. I went through and looked at what I got wrong and figured out why I missed them. I made 100% on the second try, so that's good. Thanks again for all of your words of encouragement.
You are amazing, strong, and worthy of your decision to stay tobacco free.
