I haven't been on this site much in the past 6 months or so but, I do go on every few weeks and read blog posts and see how everyone is doing. I sometimes want to post but, it always seems that someone else has said exactly what I would say. But I am going to try and be more active at least to encourage the newbies who need all the support I can give.
I have been on this non smoker journey for over 7 months and after the first two months I started to get into being a non smoker and just accepting it as my new existence and I was really happy to not be smoking the evil demon weed and then around 4 and half months or so, I started to crave a cigg really bad. I was trying to convince myself that I could smoke one or two and be okay with that. That is when the wisdom I learned from other smokers came in handy. I may have smoked if I hadn't known that was my addiction talking to me and not my rational mind. The addict wanted a cigg not, the regular person, C.Warde, she does not need nicotine and never did. I wouldn't have know that without the help of all the people who have come before me and for that, I am grateful.
I was reminded of what smoking eventually will lead to when I took a bus trip down to atlantic city, yesterday, for my birthday. On the ride back home, I had to sit next to a guy who was struggling to breath, at first, I was annoyed having to sit there and be disturbed by his rattling lungs which sounded like nails being shook in an old soup can then, the realization hit me, that could have been me if I continued to smoke. When we took a short break at a rest stop, of course he got out to smoke a cigg and when he returned he was hacking and hacking. It was torture to listen to him and I can't even imagine how horrible it was for him to experience it. I looked at him after he returned to his seat and he was clutching his pack of marlboros in his hand like they were his lifeline. I wished at that moment that he could see thru his addiction and realize he was kiling himself for a stupid weed.
I am so happy and grateful to be a NON SMOKER and I owe it all to the encourgement and experience of all the good people on this site. Thank you! 🙂
