It was that pivitol moment of upset. that moment in which I DID NOT THINK. I went from a good, solid, 225 day quit...... back to square one.
I'm good now. But in that moment of upset... where I made a choice...subconcious or not..... to put a cigarette to my lips. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do... to CHOOSE NOT TO DO IT AGAIN.
I had a rough quit back on May 23, 2012. I was having a love affair with cigarettes and it was a total loss for me...quitting. But I did it. For 8 months. In in one split second..... I flushed 8 months down the toilet. Now I am 5 days back into a new quit. One cigarette....... and i am starting all over again. 😞
THINK. REACH OUT. PLAN FOR THIS MOMENT.
The very first puff...... All I felt was DREAD. I knew I had just blown 8 months of hard work. Learn from this. There is no upset in the world that is worth risking your life for. NONE.
I am so proud of all the new people here who are getting through the upsets of life. They will always be there....... upsets. I am so disappointed... but I am moving forward. I did something that hurt me...... but it is behind me know. I let myself down...... and I let other people down........ but I am proud of myself for getting right back on track.
There is NEVER a reason to smoke. It is self destructive and it WILL kill you. My Birthday was yesterday. My Mom died of Lung Cancer 8 years ago.... on my Birthday. That never leaves my mind. I will continue to move forward in my quit........ 225 days..... minus one hour........ plus five days. Love you Ma. ♥
