Some morning are tougher than others. This morning was really tough. I've had easy days and I've had hard days. But my mind is made up, so I don't give in.
Been a while since I posted, so I just thought I would check in. Still smoke free!! It's just not an easy path to take, is it? I guess there will always be days when I have to fight hard.
My Dad has been quit for 12-13 years and he said the other day he went to reach for one! And I have talked to some people who have been quit for 8 years and started back. People's stories of people they have known that have been quit for years and either still have to fight it or have started back.
How is it that this has such control over our lives that YEARS down the road it still has some control? I'm still quitting, but it does make me wonder if it is worth it. I didn't want to post because I don't want to bring people down on here. I want to be positive. But I'm just writing what is on my mind. I just don't understand how something can be that strong.
I know I've only been 17 full days......but to hear the stories of years and know that in years, I'm still going to have cravings is a bit disheartening. I have STRONG reasons to quit and I'm not giving up, so please don't get me wrong.
Just a hard day I guess. It's been a tough morning, I've craved one so bad I am almost in physical pain. I keep thinking if I could have one puff (N.O.P.E. still sticking to it) that I would be ok. I'm NOT going to give in, I just can't wrap my mind around how much control we have given to this horrible habit.
I know all the things to do and I've done them. It's just been a hard morning and I guess thinking about the fact that for the rest of my life there are going to be days like today is hard.
I'm sorry if I am bringing anyone down. Please don't take this post negatively. I'm just trying to vent a little and the support on this site is awesome and it's a good place to vent, because the responses help a lot.
