First day quitting smoking. This really sucks. I had success before using Chantix and quit for a year. I quit b/c I wanted to start a family with my husband and then we couldn't get pregnant and so I went back. Honestly, I don't even know how I got back to being a pack a day smoker. But here I am. Financially ready now for the necessary fertility treatments and I have to stop this nasty habit again. It's funny how I remained in denial for so long that I was smoking again. Well, this time around, I am using nicotine patches, mainly b/c my doctor is on vacation and I really didn't think this thing through. I know what to expect. It will suck. It will really suck. But then it will get better, and better, and better. Before I know it, the memory of being a smoker will be distant and life will be full of joy again. But now, it is a brain game and I have to beat it. No cheating. I can never pick up a cigarette again. And that makes me really really sad.
