3 days ago, I decided I never wanted to smoke again. I had been smoking a pack a day for close to 20 years, smoking daily for nearly 25 years. But suddenly I decided I had enough.
I didn't want to pick a quit date, I just wanted to quit. So I did. Cold turkey. Except 67 1/2 hours later, I feel like chewing my arm off. Not sure exactly why, if it's to stop the incessant tapping of my fingers or if it's simply out of sheer boredom.
This constant nagging feeling that I'm forgetting to do something is totally on my nerves. And I find it very irritating that the thing I'm "forgetting to do" is smoke. If only I could think of something else that I'm forgetting to do and just go ahead and do that thing instead, maybe I can relax for a minute or 2.
At this point, I'm about 1 breath of fresh air away from speeding to the store for the patch or some Nicorette or something. ANYthing to help me feel like I'm not losing my mind. Anything except a pack of smokes. (I WILL exhibit self-control)
Would it be stupid 3 days into this to start putting the nicotine into my body again? (Via the patch or the gum, not via the cancer stick.)