End of Day 5 and I almost really blew all my efforts today! Last Thursday we had a church member die in an accident at work, his brakes went out on his truck and he had to get out and manually release it and when he did apparently he forgot to take his truck out of gear, so anyway we lost Brother Ray! On the 29th my cousin lost her dad, he was a really good man too. Really loved and took care of all of us kids! This morning I found out my Aunt by marriage lost one of her sisters last night. And today my fiance and I split up......I wanted that cigarette so bad today....I could not fight the urge so I got in my van and started heading to the store to get a pack......I kept asking myself did I really want to have to start over if Idecided to quit and started remembering what Maggie had said to me "not one puff ever" to make a long story short, when I got to the store I bought the kids each a candy bar, me a mtn dew and some gum and I came back home.....
I DID NOT SMOKE!!!!!!!!!! Now I know that I can do this without any doubts whatsoever in my head........I DEF GOT THIS!
