Aarggh

[beth11]

I'm having such frustration! Went to a convenience store for coffee (I broke our carafe). There are freakin cig ads EVERYWHERE!!! Geez. Didn't see them when I smoked. Anyhow, still not smoking. Left without coffee too. Oh well. I'm in for the night, need to get my head straight. Being alone here at home is not something I'm enjoying. I can't concentrate to read to well - which is my usual passion. Can't sleep, which is in turn hurting my fibromyalgia, which affects my mood blah blah blah. Bitch, moan. So frustrated with me. So not having fun. It's supposed to be in the eighties this weekend and I don't even care. Want to curl up in bed and let the world go away and leave me alone. I'm sorry this sounds like I'm just whining. I'm not trying to, I'm just so angry and frustrated. Going to lay down, I'm sure I'll be back on later when I can't sleep. Again. Peace.

[carole_]

Not whining, it is better to come here and post your full head off. This is the crappy part of quitting. Concentration will be on and off. Mood will be on and off. Sleeping will be on and off. Then, one day, it just all comes together and life is good, really, really good. It's a process, so just take it one day at a time. Worth every day we move forward too. It all adds up. I cannot emphasize enough that I love to support folks in the quit but selfishly I also am a part of this group to read blogs just like this, to be reminded of what it was like when I was coming off of such a controlling substance. I don't want to go back ever again. You will not want to go back either. You matter, life is too short just like you say all the time. You are a non-smoker now, YES, YES, YES!

[butterflybp2]

sorry that your day went to sh-- Made some coffee for ya, enjoy...
Glad that you didn't get any smokes..
Have a great week-end////

[debbie_]

I see those signs too now and how expensive they are getting. I guess we had a one track mind to get our smokes and not look at anything else even the price. I do now though!
I go through those days also. One day I'm all happy happy joy joy and the next day I want the world to leave me alone and I want to curl in a ball. It's really hard to quit smoking and our minds and bodies have to adjust to the different life style we have now. It's getting harder for me now that it's getting warmer and I want to go outside more. Big trigger for me but I have to face it without a smoke. It's really hard but we can do it. Keep your chin up!! You are doing GREAT!!

[cindywilson]

Beth it does get better, I was like you and I really thought it would never end but it does, but you ar learning to deal with first, all of them one after the other and your brain is playing with you some too. It will get better just hang on.

[libby]

Oh Beth, I feel your pain. My life sucks so much right now I like you want to crawl up in a ball. Mine is more my family life, but dealing with not smoking along with all the other problems really sucks. Hope things improve soon for both of us or I might go insane.

[jen25]

I have been there so many times. It does get better, and even though everyone says that, you don't feel like it ever will. you feel alone and depressed and irritated... it really will get better. We're here if and when you need us.

[lisa32009]

Oh, I feel for you, Beth. My problem is that I sleep like a rock and dream!! These darn patches!! Last week, I dreamt my boobs had to appear in "A Court Of Law" But, I swear, your honor, they were with me the whole time!!! Yikes!

[regina4]

Beth-So sorry for all the frustration--but I have to tell you that you're way of writing about it made me smile. And I never smile. I haven't even starrted a quit date yet,but YOU HELPED ME!!