I know it's been a while but I am here and still smoke free!!! Just dropped in to share a little more of my story and to again say thank you to all of you who helped me with my quit! I truly believe that this site saved me. I had attempted to quit many times before and never made it, but December 2010 I decided to quit . So this is my coming out of my quit closet. I went all of 2011 without one puff and this site was my life raft, the stories here helped guide me through my quit. I just want each of you to truly know how your stories helped me. And I want to be able to be an insperation to others they way you have to me!!!!
My name is Kim and I have battled the addiction of smoking since I was 15 years old. Growing up everyone arround me smoked except my mother and grandmother, but I grew up with people smoking in the car with the windows up, people smoking in the house.. I guess I was destined to be a smoker because inhaling all of that 2nd handsmoke made me an easy mark for the addicition. I started with sneaking smokes from my step father he was an easy mark he smoked alot so he did not keep track of his malboro's, and he kept them in the fridge.. So getting the ciggerates was the easy part. I will never forget the day I was busted by my mom. I snuck into the bathroom at the grocery store because I was addicted and needed that smoke, when I came back she smelled it right away. She was mad, when we got home I was made to smoke a cigar (they hoped it was deterant). Needless to say it was not, and I became the kid that Santa would put a carton of Malboro lights in my stocking, back then everyone was jealous and thought it was cool.. My parents never told me smoking was bad and that it could kill me, and that was the late 80's.
No-one ever told me it was bad until I met my husband at 17. He worked on me to quit for a long time. I would quit here and there a couple months at a time. When we had children I hid my smoking, I did not want parents of other children judging my children because I smoked it had become taboo to smoke and people looked at you like you were crazy. I even hid it from other parents who I knew smoked because I did not want them to know either. I would always put an age on my quit first it was 25, 25 came and went, then it was 30, 30 came and went, then it was 35, 35 came and went, then it was 40 well I quite at the ripe age of 37. And I am so thankful to all of you for sharing your stories and your struggle's with me!!! Happy New Year and may all of you have a Smoke Free 2012!!!!!
