I just realized that my original join date on this site was in November of 2012. That was nearly FIVE years ago. Jesus woman....get it together! There is just no logical reason that I have been going back and forth for this long. I am really ashamed of myself. I have overcome so much in my life that this smoking thing should be a piece of cake. If I'm being honest...I love smoking. Besides the money there isn't much about it that bothers me. However...I love my life and my kids more than I could ever love anything else. I lost my father when I was pretty young and the thought of doing that to my kids is just too much. So this time has to be last quit.