Good Morning! I am at 19 days today and feeling pretty good. In January it was at day 20 that I relapsed and SMOKED. I know I can't get over-confident becuase I felt great then too and from one minute to the next thought I could smoke "Just One". There is no such thing as just one. A motto I have been repeating is "Just One and I am DONE!" Used the lightest patch until yhis past Sunday so I know nicotine is leaving my system which has given me more cravings then I had the first few weeks and I feel tired but I know it will pass been down this road before just hoping this time I by-pass the shortcuts! There are no short cuts on this, Must walk through to get to other side.
I am having surgery on the 21st of March so in 8 days. Am nervous, it is neck surgery getting a fusion and a disc replacement. I know healing will be much faster without smoking and am glad I have taken this step. With the anxiety of the upcoming surgery I want to smoke. Anxious=Smoking soooo trying to redefine: Anxious = Deep Breathing or something like that 🙂
Am also a bit worried because I will be laid up for a bit. My Mom is coming on Sunday to help me after the surgery. I think I have mentioned this in earlier blogs but she is a hard core smoker. She gets offended when you ask her not to smoke or she can't smoke in a restaurant etc. I have explained to her she can't smoke in my house but I fear she will be a bit resentful. She also has physical disabilities herself, meaning pain so in a way I do feel bad sending her outside but at least the weather here is really nice. I am just afraid that being around will make me want one. or worse yet I will just smoke. So I need advice, mottos thoughts ideas. I am going to make little index cards to have next to me and read allen carr's book AGAIN! LOL 🙂
Thanks fior everyone being here, you are truly Life Savers! Have a great Day 🙂