~~Nobody dreams of growing up to be an alcoholic, an addict, a divorcee, broken, and depressed, Bad things do happen to good people, and it's the good people, the broken ones, that always seem to have a vacancy in their hearts for those who would not even give them a room in theirs.~~ L.L.
Bad things do, indeed, happen to good people. And being an alcoholic or an addict or a divorcee or broken doesn't make you bad. Please let go of the idea that you are 'less than' because you smoke(d). Let go of the shame. Let go of the thought that you deserve what you get because of what you do (did).
Be someone, instead, who has a vacancy in their heart for those who need it. Be someone who offers hope to those who feel 'less than'. Work your recovery with the confidence that you deserve it. And then reach down to pull the next one up.