Hello to my family. I have started in a strong desire to be smoke free and have read and studied as much information as I could get. I am sorry to all but I must be honest or I cannot achieve my goal to be smoke free. The story is that my father has smoked his whole life and now he has had to have heart surgery fluid keeps building up around his heart and they keep draining it. The doctors keep draining the fluid but it still remains. He is or seems to be giving up but I dont want that I just want and pray for him to gain strength and a strong desire keep on living!!! The main thing that I want to say is that i have failed myself today today to be smoke free and I must start again. I am so sad for my dad and I pray so much for his recovery and I know if I dont stay smoke free the same thing will happen to me. I ask please that prayers go to my dad for his recovery and the strength for me to be smoke free again in this time of need and hope. love all Joe
