So here I am on the 3rd day. Really, the worst is over. I'm surprised at how quickly all the major triggers were broken. In the midst of the addiction, you feel like you can't go without one ever, but in such a short period of time, you figure out what a big lie that is. No, it's not easy, but it's like unbrainwashing yourself. I've had to use nrt twice, and I am trying not to beat myself up over it. And now I'm adjusting to the calm. All the raging, steady anxiety/adrenaline that I've had my whole adult life is just gone. I find that to be the most amazing part. All that baseline stress is gone. It was caused by the cigarette.
But, I am closing in on the bargaining phase of this journey, so I need to stay on top of NO.