Ugh!

[theslcrane2]

I still have not smoked... Its been 25 days (yay?), but I feel like its almost getting harder now.  The urges and cravings are stronger than ever. And I'm afraid I am relying on the patch too much. I can't wear it for the rest of my life!

Anyways, I have not posted anything in a while, so I thought maybe I just needed some support of some sort or something.  It just doesn't help that I feel like I am failing at life, the only thing I have going for me right now is that I have not smoked in over 3 weeks.  And I know that in the long run that is best, but I dunno, maybe I am just blaming everything on the discomfort I get for not smoking.  Whatever.