Good morning all … just a little venting here. We had a reasonable mild, sunny day yesterday, and when I stepped out onto my deck, I had a really strong memory of all the times I smoked out there and how nice it seemed to enjoy the warmth of the sun with a smoke and a brief sit-down. It really got to me. I was alone in the house; there’s a 7-11 a minute down the hill from me; so easy, it would be so easy. The desire really, really bothered me. I think as the season gradually changes and more nice days are on the way (not any time real soon, don’t get carried away Terry, it’s only February) this is going to be a recurring trigger. Ugh, I hate it.
I didn’t give in, although the desire was so clear. I guess sometimes it isn’t what we do to keep our smobriety, it’s what we don’t do. Sometimes I feel discouraged. The winter blahs and vitamin D deficiency doesn’t help either. Just felt a little down about it.
Thanks for letting me share. I feel like I still have a long ways to go before I’m steady.
Have a great day, everyone …
Cheers, Terry 269 DOF
