~~I've learned that if you look deep inside, you'll find things you really car for and things you really want and people who really care for you.~~ Unknown
I just got home from a religious education meeting. I teach 5th graders at my church and have been doing so for about 6 years now. It makes me happy. Really happy. This year we are going to be raising money for a new building for our children so it is added fun. And there is nothing more peaceful for me than working with my kids.
I also simply love working with our local domestic violence shelter. I donate positivity art and positivity books for the victims and their children. I also am part of creating a social media campaign to spread awareness of the huge domestic violence problem in our community.
I am still working on my 1k challenge as well. I am walking 1000 miles in a year. Kinda being slow about it as I am only at 620 miles but I have time to complete the challenge before December 31. And I continue my daily yoga. I am thinking I want to be a certified yoga instructor but haven't signed up for classes yet.
If you look deep enough, you will find things you really care about. Truly you will. And the more you do these things you truly care about, the less likely you will fall back on negative coping skills such as smoking. And the more you really love the things you do, the more you will find people who belong in your tribe and who enhance your love of life.
When I come here to ex, I often talk about....myself :) But not to gain friends. Not to toot my own horn. To show you that anyone can quit. That anyone can change. That life opens up when you break free of addiction rather than closing off. That I understand your challenges and can tell you that once you find the warrior, your challenges will slink away. Including the urge to smoke. Including the fear of quitting. Including the anxiety you may feel finding yourself once the smoke has cleared.
I have an urge to help here as well. I don't know exactly how much my posts help those who are quitting, but I continue to write in the hopes that I do help. It's different being online as when I do things in person, I know what works and what doesn't. Here I'm not so sure. But I kinda figure, at least I'm not hurting anything! Some read, some don't, and some are such delightful friends, they would support me no matter what I do!
So look deep within and find things you really care for. Do those and what what happens next.....you'll be amazed!