Brenda,
I hope you are doing well with cutting down slowly. That is part of my strategy as well, and New Years eve is right around the corner. This is so hard to do, I will never smoke another cigarette again. It really makes me angry that this is so hard. I, too, have taken years to prepare myself for this. changing the things I do, places I go, my rituals, every aspect of my life, all because I allowed myself to become addicted and to listen to that nasty voice in my head that attacks my willpower.
I will draw upon my inner strength that has gotten me through many tough times in my life. I really need to put that strength to good use now.
Hand in there! I am glad you are here to talk with.