Hey, Kenny - The first bit of proof that you want to live that I can point out to you, is that you came HERE !!!! That's an awesome start....and we WELCOME you for making a HUGE decision to change your life...and live !!!
Sara is right...have you checked out the EX program yet ??? Furst, you go though the EX program; learn about your addiction (and we ARE nicotine addicts) learn how to separate yourself from some habits; know your triggers...and be comfortabe in setting a quit date. We are here for you, dude !!! Just know that you Can do this....you WILL do this.....and you are not alone !!! OK ???
Keep in touch...and good luck !!!!