Amazing how things can turn around in the span of a minute. All was going well today. Busy, not thinking about smoking and when I did it didn't cause any strong reactions. But in that one minute I wanted to scream. Of course my director would not have been amused. I can't really go into what came onto my tracks to disrupt my daily journey, but I will say that I am reaching out to get that object out of the way to avoid a derailment. I have one more client and then will be alone to drive home through harsh emotions. I know I am vulnerable, not just because of this, but because I am so new in my quit. I know in my heart of hearts that I cannot go through another day one. One thought keeping my feet where they are, aside from having one more client, is that I know if I have even one I will most likely never give up smoking. This has to be my forever quit. Thanks for any help.
-Michelle 
Taking a deep breath JACKIE1-25-15 and that feels great. I'm in the day (night now) and am grateful to have another day WON. This one kicked and screamed a little.
-Michelle 
Hi Christine13. It was a rough day the other day, so I just finally went to bed instead of fighting. I did turn it around and have had two pretty decent days. I am grateful for that. Thanks for reaching out.
-Michelle
