Good morning to all. Anybody remember the term Terrible Two's for toddlers? I remember the 3's being worse. I am heading on 2 weeks (Day 9) for me and I'm not sure, but I do believe my mind is wondering towards the next leg of my journey because I feel "dread". My last quit lasted 19 days (that was the third week). Maybe my brain is reminding me that the third week is when I lost my quit due to fearful thinking. I am fearful that this is happening again. I am mindful that I need to be in today and not in the future, but this nasty feeling is pulling at me. I just wanted to come to this site because I know it has been my lifeline. I plan on getting dressed and heading out to work. I also plan on coming to this site as much as possible. I will pack a healthy lunch, get down on my knees and praying (Ellen's suggestion has helped), have gum with me and plenty of water. I plan on redirecting my thoughts and remembering how much I coughed and choked when I was smoking. I will also think of my family and how we are going to be celebrating my youngest daughter's graduation from college in the spring as well as the trip we are planning to Disney for her graduation present. All of these wonderful things will be present in my mind to help me overcome this feeling. But I could use a little encouragement on today's journey. Thanks in advance.
-Michelle 
8 DOF
desiree465, wow I could be writing this story also. My mom is a heavy smoker. She lives in another state and I remember the excuse that I couldn't quit before I went to visit her because it would be impossible. I just finished my second smoke free week and know that I will be visiting my mom in the near future. Believe me the thought about being in her home is hard especially because I will be staying with her. I have talked to my husband about this and mentioned that I may rent a hotel room when visiting, so I can decompress and not be near the smoke. I don't know if I'll be tempted or if I will physically be ill. Keep moving forward, but remember to move forward one day at a time.
Regards,
Michelle
Lisa, hang in there. Each day I thank G-d for another smoke free day. It is hard, but you can do it. I often look at other ex's and see there DOF. It inspires me and I hold on the that inspiration for all it's worth. I wrote in a post that at any time I could buy cigarettes. There is no one to stop me, but me. The fact that you are under a blizzard watch and you are not going out into it says a lot. Lord only knows how many of us went out regardless of the weather to get our smokes, so keep it up. You're doing great!
-Michelle
