This may be a little on the negative side and I apologize but I feel like discussing it here, honestly with you all with be helpful...so here goes. I’m going to tell on myself and admit that I have reset my quit date several times. I really decided that I want to stop smoking a few weeks ago and, not that this is an accolade, I have made some small positive changes and have at least cut down. My problem is this- I didn’t realize just how much of my life I dedicated to smoking over the last year. I have been smoking for over 20 years and have always had a full life until this past year. It’s a yin and yang situation. I met the love of my life and moved in, he is very supportive of my quitting and did so himself five years ago. I am now unemployed though, for the first time in ages and am living in a relatively new area so not too many social connections. I spend a great deal of time just sitting in my yard with coffee and smoking- without that, it’s like my life is completely empty! I know it sounds rediculous and I have a great amount of guilt. I am in a good place and I do have things to do to keep myself busy, distractions, etc. I’ll also be back to work shortly but for now it’s overwhelming and at the very least, I’m getting this “secret” out and telling on myself.Thoughts? Again, I apologize for the gloom! Lol.
