Hello, my quit date is Sunday the 14th of November and i'm looking for buddies. Lois, I too have mental health issues, I have tried to quit many times but always go back by convincing myself that it helps when i'm unwell. I have realised that what really helps is exercise (cycling and walking my dog) and fresh air. These things get neglected as reaching for a cig seems like the 'easier' option. I know it isn't, it has a strangulating effect on my physical and mental health, it makes me more breathless, and panic attacks are worse, and it controls me.I want to be in control of my life and health again. ryman471 I'm also a closet smoker, hiding it from my family, due to guilt that many family members have died of heart problems and cancer. My partner also smokes and is all too happy to give me cigarettes when my willpower weakens.I'm always being told, you can give up easily you've done it before. This convinces me smoking is a choice, and weakens my resolve. Yes I can quit, but I need to stay quit. what is the point in going through withdrawal time after time, punishing myself with deprivation,when i know that if i perservere It will get easier and i can make a permanent change. The first cig of the day is the one i crave the most, it is also the most unpleasant physically, and mentally I tell myself "thats another day i havn't quit" so i can't enjoy it, it just dulls the pangs, and serves no other purpose. This quit has to be the last, one step forward, two steps back is tedious and pointless. I joined this group because i would like to quit with support from people who understand and who have the same objective as me. That is how this quit is going to be different, the resources on this site can help me, i am convinced of that. I have started tracking cigs, and it appears that stress and being around others who smoke are common triggers, but the majority of times i don't need a cigarette, i'm just smoking for the sake of it. Anyone who wants to be my friend will be welcomed with open arms, as we are all in this together.
Best wishes and kindest regards,
Suzanne x
