I know you said no advice and I respect that.... that being said we are all in this together and we hear you, I hear you...quitting is a cow and I am brand new into quitting only 18 days since I quit and I understand it is not easy. I am using chantix and it really has helped take the edge off. I remember trying to use nrts they did not do it for me always left me wanting. Chantix made it possible for me to stop smoking without the grippling side effects of withdraw...I am still taking it and I am scared when I'll have to be "on my own" I'm hoping that after the chantix is over and done with then I will have learned enough about myself to know that I can "get through " ______"--(insert unpleasant situation here) without a ciggarette. Because the truth is ciggarettes dont help. They are not a solution they are a problem that perpetuates other problems in pur lives. I tell myself this often and also when going through a rough patch I say to myself, well, I made it through this (insert rough situation you went through without smoking) and did fine. Part of withdraw isnt so much being without the nicotine as it is realizing that you are learning to live though these troubling situations without them. It's new stress that makes it feel like you're on a new quit. But you're not new this is just new stuff you're learning to deal with without a smoke.
I noticed you said you started having a really rough time when you stopped the patch. Maybe go back to the patch and use a smaller dose (I'm not sure the dosage of the patches.
Another thing that helped me during the stress times is realizing that smoking a cigg will not help me "figure it out" or "calm me down" that instead that ability was always in me without the smokes...so empowering.
I dont know if this is advice cuz I dont mean it to be I just hope you are feeling better and telling you what is currently working for me. Oh one good thing about chantix is it's not nicotine. I hope you are well we are in this together.
