I'm coming up on my quit date - Wednesday, the 24th will be my first day without cigarettes. I'm looking forward to it. I am so sick of smoking, so sick of wasting my money, so sick of being embarrassed by the majority that don't smoke, so sick of those ugly "No Smoking" signs, so sick of being unwanted as long as I smoke, sick of my stinky clothes, sick of my stinky home, sick of my stinky car, sick of the nasty taste, sick of the smell of the ashtray each time I empty it, sick of being lashed to an invisible albatross, and just plain sick of being short of breath all the time.
I don't know what my first day without cigarettes will be like. I expect varying feelings of fear, dread, anxiety, worry, relief, victory, serenity, and a new-found sense of self-respect. I am worried. And I'm looking forward to that day.
I've done all the steps on this website and others and followed all the suggestions. But one question remains: Do I want to quit bad enough to stay quit?